Monday, May 25, 2015

It's Been One of Those Weeks

   We are still getting so much rain here-almost every day it seems or off and on since April and very little sunshine-that really gets to ya after awhile-just as bad as when there is no rain and no relief from the sunshine for weeks or months. That's just mother nature and life.

     I have also known that for the last couple weeks my Mom was failing. She has been so ill with severe dementia this past year especially.  Difficult for me as I live 12 hours away from where she was living. I also have not been able to talk to her this past year cause she just was not able. Instead I would make handmade cards and send them to her each month as the staff told me they do read the mail to their patients so that was my only connection. I would pray for her every day, it always seems so unfair to me when some more than others suffer so much in the end-could never understand that at all-but that's life that is just the way things are.
     I did get the phone call this week that God called her home. I struggled with my emotions-so thankful she would no longer be suffering, but an empty feeling for me too and feeling very Alone. 
    I was hoping to be able to fly to save the 14 and 17 hour Greyhound ride but I live too rural to get a good flight. So Greyhound it is. The only close family I have left is my brother (and my husband)  Brother's days are pretty filled so I decided to rent a hotel this time right near the station which is also at the airport their in South Bend, In. The services will be mid June. My brother did clear his schedule to spend most of my last day with me since check out time 11 am and my bus leaves at 8:30 pm. I may also be able to connect up with a blog friend that lives in the area that last day as well.
   . This will most likely be my last trip "home" which really is not home at all as the family farm has been sold now. 
      So today being Memorial Day: a day to reflect and thank our soldiers for giving their lives for our freedom-I have lots to contemplate on today.
      We are both finally on the mends. Larry was soooo ill when he came home from the hospital that first weekend in May but he is now more on the mends. He is still quite weak for doing anything major-like trying to get a mower to work here, but finally no more coughing or wheezing. I am much better too, although allergies are still so bad with the very high pollen and mold we have had all spring.
   Next weekend we have another friend driving down from northern Illinois to visit so that will lift our spirits and he loves my cooking and baking lol   
    Since it has been so wet and rainy here and I was having a tough mental week I decided to start reading the Twilight 4 books series again-and these are thick books. The first time I read them I was so captivated by the author's writings that I could not put them down and would read them til early in the morning. So I knew I needed to read them again to "catch" everything. I am reading things I had missed and am still reading them all day and into the early morning hours-I am on the 4th book now. This author is just that good.

Mom made allot of quilts after she retired, I looked for one that I had taken in the past All of her left over fabrics went to charity quilts

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three years ago when I realized her dementia was getting worse I had brought this big quilt project to make together and I had to put it all away as her mind no longer understood how to quilt-that was wake up call for me and very sad

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Mom and her cousin Charlotte made a "day" out of picking me up and taking me back to the Greyhound station at the South Bend airport when I visited each year. This photo is probably 8 to 10 years ago

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10 years ago my brother and I when we still had the family farm (over 150 years)

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This was the last family gathering we had together at our favorite restaurant in Shipshewana Indiana just before she moved off the farm and into a little house across the street from my brother--that was a good memory day

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